Feeling Heavy?

Feeling heavy?

I hear this over and over and over again in Pranic Healing sessions.

And within the first 10 minutes everyone tells me they feel lighter.

Because energy builds up over time - other people’s junk, the state of the world, our thoughts, our emotions, the to-do list… it all builds up.

And it feels heavy.

I had a new pranic healing client this week.

I have explained the process to him a few times in social situations. He would say: “I still don’t understand it Tracy!”

This week he reached out for a session because he was dealing with some physical issues that western medicine can’t seem to fix.

He said “I still don’t get what this pranic healing is all about, but I trust you and I’m willing to try it.”

About 10 minutes in he said he felt lighter.

The pain shifted and changed during the session.

It went from a 5 to a 1 by the end. He said he felt so light and relaxed. AND his vertigo subsided!

I can explain Pranic Healing to you a million times in a million different ways but there’s nothing like experiencing it for yourself to see if it helps you.

If you’re feeling heavy, or out of sorts, or have a physical ailment that modern medicine isn’t touching, why not try pranic healing? Click right here to schedule a session - zoom or in-person.

My energy creates my reality

I draw an oracle card every week*. It’s my divine direction for the week. This week’s card is:

“My energy creates my reality. What I focus on is what I will manifest.”

This is what I help people with in coaching.

Shifting your energy to create the reality you want.

Shifting your focus so you can manifest what you desire.

Maybe your life seems bad right now.

Or maybe it seems good and you think you should be happy, but you’re not.

I have clients in both camps.

All the facts line up to support your claims - the story you tell yourself about your life. It’s all true.

This is where we work in coaching - the tension between these 2 – your energy/focus and your reality/the facts.

It’s nuanced and different for each person. 

This is not about thinking positive. In fact, that will make things worse if you’re doing that to cover up the reality of your pain.

But there is a space - between your focus and the facts. In this space you can influence the quality and feel of your life, no matter the facts.

What we do together in that space between is examine your thoughts, feelings, energy body, and actions.

With that awareness, we use tools to help you shift your energy.

And then “magically” the facts of your life shift too.

One of my fav client quotes is “Just 8 sessions with Tracy and all these doors opened up!” And they did. She got clear on what she wanted, and what was in the way. And THEN all of her dreams happened - seemingly magically. It all unfolded without any effort in ways that seemed unbelievable…like magic.

If you’re navigating something difficult, or want something different – let’s talk. We’ll use your energy to shift your reality, to manifest what you want.

*My weekly card draw deck is “The Universe Has Your Back” by Gabby Bernstein.

Making Violet Water

Spring has sprung! And I’m in love with violet water!

Here’s my tip of the week:

Fill a jar about 1/3 full of violets. Before you pick them: Pause a moment to connect with the violets. Ask permission. If they say no, move on. If they say yes, thank them. Now fill your jar. Pour boiling water over them. Watch the water turn the most beautiful shade of blue/green! Then drink. I usually let mine steep overnight outside to soak in the moon energy.

It’s sweet and SO good for you! It’s rich in vitamin C & A, magnesium, calcium, antioxidants, reduces inflammation, soothes the digestive system, and supports heart health. Powerhouse.

And how about those dandelion greens!? They’re good for everything.

I believe that Mother Nature provides us with early spring beauty and nutrient-dense food to recharge us after a long winter. Thanks MN!

An inspiring love story

Hi friends! I’ve got a love story for you today! It’s about my cousin Collin. That’s him <<<

HE IS IN PEOPLE MAGAZINE!! And so am I, btw…cuz I was honored to be a bridesmaid in Collin and Kaci’s wedding in Atlanta a few weeks ago! Yes, I’m famous now! I’ll autograph your magazine copy if you’d like.

The article is about he and Kaci’s love story, which is heart-warming and worth the read. They met on a dating app for people with disabilities and chronic health conditions.

But my story about Collin that I want to share with you today is a love story of a different kind…

Collin was born at 26 weeks, weighing only 1 lb 10 oz. He has cerebral palsy and navigates life in a wheelchair. He lives in Alabama and was visiting Indiana with his fam for the solar eclipse in April 2024. I was telling him about pranic healing and he wanted to try it.

When he got home we did a Zoom healing and he felt instant relief - both from stress and anxiety, and from chronic physical pain.

And so began our almost weekly Zoom healing sessions that we’re still doing. Collin says if he goes more than a week without healing that his pain levels get pretty bad.

Fast forward to February 2025: Collin had surgery. He had major complications. He coded. He ended up on a vent for 2 weeks. Things looked grim. He was in the ICU for several weeks and in the hospital for months.

Me, along with my fellow pranic healers Paula & Shika, and a team of other healers from Prana Bar (BLESS THEM ALL), did LOTS of remote pranic healing (you don’t need to be in the same state, or even on the screen together).

And Collin recovered.

His moms say that Pranic Healing and his love for Kaci brought him back to life. I will add that the love and devotion of his moms was also a major factor.

I went to Alabama last April to visit Collin in the hospital. When I got there he said he hadn’t been able to sleep because he was in so much pain and asked for a healing. He was asleep within 10 minutes!

Kaci and I spent alot of time together on that trip and I learned that she was born with incredible psychic and healing gifts. She can literally see energy, and feels it strongly.

But she didn’t know how to help people with her gifts. We started doing healings for Collin together in the hospital. It was incredible. We learned from each other and became quite a healing team. Collin brought us together.

Kaci and Collin are both really special people. They are so full of love. They prevail against constant physical challenges.

Getting out of bed, taking a shower, getting to an appointment…all of those things that are simple for me are difficult for Collin.

Despite the challenges, he and Kaci navigate it all with remarkable courage, determination, positivity, humor and love.

I’m so inspired by both of them.

I’m so thankful that they found each other. And I’m so thankful that Collin connected me with Kaci so that we could both become better healers.

If you have chronic pain, Pranic Healing might help you too, like it does Collin. You can schedule a session here.

And if you would like a duo pranic healing session - with both me and Kaci working togeemail mether for you - comment below and we’ll get it on the books.

Here’s to perseverance, determination, keeping the faith, and LOVE!

The circumstance does not define your value

Making real lasting behavior changes is a practice. And The Universe gives us lots of opportunities to practice once we sign up for the course.

Here’s a recent text exchange with a coaching client:

Client: I have a call with a difficult client today. In major “how do I want to show up for this” mode. 🤪 

Me: So how DO you wanna show up? Don’t overthink it.

Client: You clearly don’t know who you’re talking to…(T note: haha! I attract over-thinkers. Wonder why?! ;-))

Me: Haha! Maybe grounded, anchored, not being tossed about with emotion? Matter-o-fact? Just spit ballin here.

Client: I’d say that’s pretty accurate. Just focus on what the business need is. Egotistical asses on the other screen doesn’t impact who I am at all. And if those interactions become more what my professional life will look like, I have to manage that or I’ll go nuts. A good time to practice.

Yesssssssss 👏🏼 could not have said it better myself. <end of text exchange>

The circumstance (egotistical ass on your screen) does not define your value, or your identity. YOU define that. Realizing that is SO EMPOWERING!

And, without changing the circumstance (because we can’t make other people not be an ass) how do you want to intentionally manage yourself? How do you want to show up?

This client is now aware that he has choice in this situation!

I love to help people realize this.

It’s not always about changing the circumstance. Sometimes it is. But sometimes it’s about managing our internal world…our thoughts and feelings about the circumstance.

Realizing that and practicing it will change your life.

If you’d like to dig into that with me, schedule a coaching session here.

Feeling liminal

It’s late February - that liminal space between winter and spring…not quite any season. We’re in Imbolc season on The Wheel of the Year. Half way between the winter solstice and spring equinox.

Maybe, like me, you’re feeling liminal too? Not quite here or there. The focus isn’t clear yet. There’s been alot of literal and metaphorical fog of late. We feel something stirring but we aren’t on fire with energy yet.

That’s ok. It’s the sacred cycle of life…repeat this over and over with me! You’re not doing it wrong. That’s how life works.

It helps to look to nature (we ARE a part of nature, after all) for cues on how the cycle works. Cuz we’ve gotten ourselves all confused about that in this manic go go go modern world.

That’s the gift of The Wheel of the Year. We slow down, and suddenly we realize we’re in just the right place. In the perfect time.

If you’re feeling the dull-drums of winter, feeling like the hibernating bear who’s rolling over and hitting snooze (as my friend Anna said ;-)), if you’re wondering when you’ll get tired of laying on the couch in your sweats and watching TV (like me!)…

Here’s the invitation for this week:

Get out of your head and go for a walk. Look for subtle signs of change:

• What shifts to you notice? What is stirring?

• Notice the ground – how is it changing, melting, transforming

• Notice the sun – it may be hiding behind a veil of gray, hazy and dim, but it’s there, slowly building strength. Just 2 extra minutes every day add up!

• Look for color. Any buds starting on trees? Anything poking up from the ground?

• How does the air smell? Any different than last month?

• Do you notice any new sounds that weren’t there a few weeks ago?

Imbolc season invites us to make room for the hope of the coming spring and new life. We don’t have to push ourselves. Can we simply notice and allow?

shifting into action

Hi there friends! Boy these times we are living in. Whew. How are you feeling? Helpless? Hopeful? Hopeless? In trust? Out of control? Afraid? Angry?

I’m cycling through that too. I am horrified by what is happening in our country.

But I don’t want to be stuck in inaction.

I have a tool that can help us shift into empowerment.

I provide monthly mentorship for the coaches at Goodwill. We’ve been doing a series on fear - how it gets in the way of taking action and making change. How to identify it and how to work with it.

This week I was teaching the “Levels of Accountability” as a framework for shifting into action. As I was explaining it, one of the coaches said “this is a perfect illustration of where it seems most people are in our country right now - on both sides - defensive, closed, in a state of fear, blaming others, committed to being right.” They are below the line of accountability.

This is a model for choosing a way forward, for finding solutions, and living in trust.

Listen. The fear will also be there. But if we choose to shift above the line, we will also have access to solutions for navigating.

So here’s the tool. And I made a video for you that walks you through it! Here’s the link to that.

If you’d like help using this tool to get yourself back into a state of trust and empowerment, I’d love to help you with it. You can schedule a coaching session here.

Feeling down about the world?

Feeling down about the world?

I was chatting with a friend over the holidays who said she’s feeling despair about the state of the world. She feels powerless and hopeless and, as a result, unmotivated to do anything.

Listen. I get it. But this is the time when good people must activate!

Here’s a few quotes that are inspiring me lately:

I’m reading The Nightingale, by Kristin Hannah. Have you read it? It’s about the French resistance - specifically the women - when the Nazis invaded. It will rip your heart out and also give you a quiet confidence in the power and strength of women taking courageous action - even when they felt like it was a small thing, and not enough. It all mattered. The seemingly small things matter.

Here’s a quote from the book that really struck me:

“Love has to be stronger than hate or there is no future for us. We will remind each other. On the dark days. We will be strong for each other.”

And this quote by Jimmy Carter, who did some absolutely amazing things to help humanity…

Let’s not lose heart. Let’s help & inspire each other.

Word of the Year

I’m taking some time this week to do some dreaming and visioning.

Softer than goal setting. What do I desire - like on a heart level. What do I want to feel this year. What vibe do I want to create? What do I want to walk towards?

Part of my process is doing a word search for my guiding words of the year. I’ve been doing it for several years.

It feels magical to receive words that will guide me.

I’m given lessons and opportunities all year to live more deeply into these words.

It’s fun to stay connected to them throughout the year and see how they show up. I journal about them throughout the year as they come up and I learn about them on a deeper level.

At the end of each year, I do a review - what opportunities did I have to lean into them? How do I see them differently? In what practical ways did I embrace them? In what ways did I see others exemplify these words.

My 2025 words were: perseverance, believe, peace

I just chose my 2026 words. Wanna do it too?

BEFORE YOU LOOK…here’s how it goes:

• Set your intention. I ask for words to guide my year.

• Then decide how many words you want. Maybe you’re a one-word gal and want to really focus. I’m more of a 3-4 word gal. Whatever you’re feelin.

• Then let your eyes land on them. Trust what you receive.

GO!

My 2026 words are: purpose, connection, gratitude, love

What did you land on?

I’d love to hear your words!

And your thoughts on how you’ll work with them.

Winter Solstice!

Winter Solstice is Dec 21st. The shortest day of the year also means the light is returning!

Yes it’s coming! It always does.

The name “solstice” means "sun stands still.” The Sun's path stops moving lower in the sky and starts its gradual climb back. Today is a celebration of rebirth and light. 

The Solstice marks the beginning of Yule season on The Wheel of the Year. The Wheel invites us to connect with the cycles and rhythms of nature. We look to what’s going on in the natural world as a guide for aligning our own energy.

We are a part of the sacred cycles of the seasons.

The darkness of Yule season invites us to rest and introspection.

This is a season for listening, dreaming, reflecting, soft quiet ways.

The slowly returning light reminds us to have faith and hope in the future. New light brings new life and expansion.

At the Winter Solstice we celebrate the sun.

I love this quote by Eric Bruce: What a miracle, that on this shortest day - when it feels like we could just descend completely into darkness - the Light returns.

We are invited on the Winter Solstice to celebrate the light, and to embrace the gifts of the darkness.

I hope you’ll take a quiet moment today, amidst the holiday hub-bub, to reflect on the themes of the Solstice & Yule season and to celebrate light.

Hope vs Belief

If you missed my blog post a few weeks ago about the “Fear of Hope”, you can read it here.

I have a few more thoughts on the subject that have emerged.

I think Hope vs Belief has a subtle, yet important, distinction.

Hoping to me feels like an anxious passive energy.

Like you’re sitting in your chair wringing your hands and biting your lip…Oh geez, I sure do hope…

Belief feels enlivening and igniting.

It feels active and engaging. You’re doing it and you believe you can.

Hope feels like it’s cloudy or behind a wall. You can’t touch it. You’re not sure.

Belief feels…well, you can FEEL it. It’s around you. In you.

Belief feels sparkly.

I like living in belief.

If you’re stuck in hope and want to embrace belief, I have coaching tools that will get you feeling sparkly and into aligned action. You can schedule a session right here. We’ll turn your passive hopes into action!

photo of the tree in the snow from unsplash.com. Can’t find the artist’s name.

How I’m doing December

We started our Calm The Chaos 4-week series on Monday night! We’re walking through my framework for intentionally creating the December that you want.

I’ve been feeling into my December theme this past week and came up with “warmth”. 

Watching The Family Stone movie really got me in that warm holiday vibe. 

I just love the feel of that house and the kitchen, specifically. 

When I went to grab images of the kitchen for my Pinterest holiday vibes mood board I found that I really didn’t like it at all. It’s cluttered and there really isn’t anything in it that I’d like to replicate.

That got me to thinking…it’s not the material “thing”, or the event, or the <arguably> perfect meal…I mean MAYBE it’s the perfect meal. No really. It’s not. 

It’s the FEELING that you create around it. I want to sit down in that kitchen with Diane Keaton (RIP) and a cup of coffee from her precious coffee pot and just BE there. It’s the warm feeling that the family creates that makes it feel appealing. They are not perfect by any means. That creates warmth too. And that cluttered kitchen. Not perfect. That doesn’t matter either. It’s the felt sense of warmth that calls to me.

So how to create warmth? That’s what I want in December.

I am looking to my 5 senses:

• I love images. Looking at a collection of images that say “warmth” creates the feeling for me. And then I can express warmth to others.

• I have some “winter warmth” essential oil diffuser recipes I’m rotating.

• Hot chocolate is going to be my winter go-to warm treat.

• I have a few blankets and cashmere sweaters that give that “warm” texture. And I got a super soft rug for beside my bed.

• I have a few playlists on Spotify that make me feel like I’m nestled up on an old lived-in velvet couch in a NYC coffee shop with brick walls that are 200 years old sipping rich thick hot chocolate and watching it snow. Ahhhh that’s warmth. Cozy Christmas Jazz & Cozy Coffee Shop.

I’m also considering activities and places that give me a sense of warmth.

Stepping outside last night and watching the snow fall in the street light gave me the ultimate sense of warmth. And sitting here on the bed looking out at the way the snow clings to the trees feels SO warm.

The goal is to FEEL a sense of warmth on the inside. I first have to create it within, and then I can express it. 

Others can feel it…whatever it is that you’re feeling. They feel it. I want it to be warmth that they feel this December.

What’s your December vibe? You’re creating one. Might as well do it on purpose.

If you missed signing up for my group, I can lead you through it 1:1. Grab a zoom coaching session here.

The fear of hope

“Hope is the conduit for miracles.” 

That’s my weekly card for contemplation from Gabby Bernstein’s deck. 

Yes, it’s true. But Hope is a tricky little guy. Let’s dig deeper, shall we?

I do monthly training and mentorship for the coaches at Goodwill. They do amazing work with employees of Goodwill. We just completed a series highlighting points from Ross Ellenhorn’s book “How We Change, And Ten Reasons Why We Don't.” 

He talks about the research on The Fear of Hope. This was new to me.

Here’s how my man Ross sees it: “When you hope for something, you YEARN for it. But you don’t know if you’ll actually get it. That makes it different from optimism, which is a strong belief that you’ll get it. When you hope for this something, you’re giving greater importance to it than you did before you began hoping. As a result, your potential disappointment over the loss of that thing becomes more intense the more you hope for it. The higher you go up the hill of hope, the farther you could fall because you’re making that want/wish/goal more and more important as you pursue it.” …or in some cases just think about it.

This is resonate to me. I have learned about myself that I really hate disappointment. And I see how I try to avoid it by not always going for the thing I really hope for. I have also learned that you feel disappointment anyway, because you don’t get the thing you hoped for either way. So you’re not really avoiding disappointment at all, you’re just guaranteeing it.

I tested this theory out with a coaching client and found that hope (supposedly the conduit for miracles!) was actually her block to her forward progress!

She had such a fear that could not find the job that she hoped for that she was doing nothing. SO SHE CAN HOLD ONTO HOPE. She has no idea what would happen if she can’t find a good job where she lives. Not getting it feels like worst case scenario to her. She jokingly/not joking said it feels like someone is chasing her down a dark alley with a chainsaw. The disappointment of not getting the thing she hopes for felt unbearable. At least if she does nothing, she can hold onto hope.

I then explored this with another client. She too was sitting in inaction because if she puts her work out there, it may be rejected. She may be told it’s not good, she’s not good. Then she would lose her identity as an “artist” and that is worst case scenario. So she sits alone with her beautiful creations hidden from view so that she can hold onto hope. Hope that they’re good. Hope that she is worthy. Hope that she is enough. Hope that she is a good artist.

Makes sense doesn’t it? The discomfort of losing that particular hope, the disappointment of it, seems so unbearable that you’re not willing to feel it. 

But here’s the thing. You’re still miserable sitting with your precious hope in tack. It feels bad to have what you hoped for not turn out, but it feels as bad, and eventually worse, to not to try. 

Then nothing ever happens. And you cultivate a fear of hope, because hope feels worthless. And then you stop dreaming because you keep experiencing that hope goes no where.

So yes…Hope CAN be the conduit for miracles. It can also be shackles that keep you stuck.

If you’re struggling with inaction, it might be a fear of hope. I’m good at helping people find the root of their stuckness and getting into action. Both of these clients are now taking action, btw! After years of not. So, you see…there IS hope ;-).

You can schedule a Zoom coaching session here for help.

photo of me by the amazing Emily Schwank.

Divine Guidance for Navigating Change

I recently wrote about navigating endings. Specifically the desecration of farm land in the small rural community where I grew up to make room for pharmaceuticals and a Meta data center. A sign of the priorities of the time. If you missed it, you can read it here.

The day after I wrote that, during my morning meditation time, I was directed by my guides to a passage from the book “Casting the Net”, by Sharon McErlane. She’s a lovely woman now in her 90s who channels a manifestation of The Divine she calls “The Grandmothers”. Here’s the message they had for me:

“As you move closer to the times of change that are coming to earth, all sorts of pain will arise. The horrors will become more and more evident and as they do, you will need to maintain your link to what is real, to what is changeless. As evil behaviors become more pronounced, stay connected to The Divine/God/Source (whatever form of the Divine resonates for you) and you won’t be swept away by the shock of the moment.

Much is changing on earth at this time and you must allow it to change. Don’t fight it. It’s supposed to change. It’s part of the “play”. Life is supposed to change, so let it. In order for the new to come, the old must pass.

You’ve forgotten about it being a play. You think everything that happens on earth is real. Nothing ephemeral is real. That which is real is changeless and that which is not real is always changing. Life on earth is always changing. It’s supposed to.

As this change comes, give your attachment to suffering over to us. You contract whenever these so called losses occur. You try to prevent them from taking place. Every time you do that, your heart clutches and holds onto pain. Just let it pass. It’s only a story. Let it flow. Let it go. Pain isn’t permanent. So let it pass.

Whenever you feel pain like this, remember that you’re holding onto something, thinking it’s permanent when actually it’s just flowing down the river. Let it flow. Relax now and remember that at every moment you are being carried down the river. Carried downstream with the flow, to peace.”

Isn’t that just magical?! If we get quiet long enough to listen, we receive guidance.

I can also help you with transition and releasing to the flow of change through pranic healing energy work or coaching. I do both those on Zoom! Support is always available.

Transitions & Change

Let’s talk about transitions.

My baby girl went to college last month. Transitions and change are top of mind.

Plus - the autumn equinox kicked off Mabon season on The Wheel of The Year. A season of transition. The themes for this Mabon season are:

the balance of light and dark

transition

completion

preparing for winter rest

releasing

I’m in a period of transition as we explore empty nesting so this theme is very present for me. I’ve found this book I’m reading/listening to “Falling Upward”, by Richard Rohr, really thought provoking and helpful as I process. It’s about the first half of life themes versus the 2nd half of life themes, from a developmental perspective.

Life transitions.

I really loved the example he gave of the Japanese ceremony to transition their soldiers out of war. “Discharging Your Loyal Soldier.” He describes how after war (could you call raising a child “war”?! Arguably yes.), the soldiers need a broader identity in order to rejoin their community as useful citizens. And they have a ceremony for this.

The soldiers are publicly thanked, honored, and praised effusively for their service to the people. Then an elder stands and announces with great authority something like: “The war is now over. The community needs you to let go of what has served you, and served us, well up to now. The community needs you to return as a man, a citizen, and something beyond soldier.”

He says this kind of closure is needed for most of us at a transition point in life. A rite of passage, a clear cross-over, a closure and transition into a new period. An invitation to consider your new direction, and your importance as part of the whole.

He talks about how the US is “ritually starved.” I agree. We have no/few rites of passage ceremonies where we say - “That was then. This is now. And it’s a good thing!” We’re just like - yeah have those babies and good luck. Or drop that kid off at college and then…idk…whatever bro. Go have a beer.

So I’ve been thinking about the transition of mothering in this “discharging the Japanese soldier” way (cuz let’s be honest, mothering felt alot like war to me ;-)) and I made some journal prompts for myself. I imagined a wise elder saying these to me:

· Thank you for the service you have provided. <Praise yourself ALOT here>

· Your job then was…

· You are now something beyond who you were.

· Your job now is…

· Your community needs you to…

· You can contribute in these ways…

It feels really nice and uplifting and important and sacred to have an elder (albeit not in human form) walk me through this.

Maybe this is helpful to you too, no matter the nature of your transition. You could look at it as the transition of our global community, of the collective consciousness…transitions of all sorts abound.

And your community needs you!

Thank you for your service.

You are now something beyond who you were. Who are you now?

If these prompts spark some things you’d like to work through, I’m available for coaching and guidance on your path. You don’t have to do it alone. It helps to say it out loud. Schedule a session!

Navigating Endings

I come from a small rural farming community west of Lebanon Indiana. I grew up plowing fields and helping tend the garden and frog giggin’ and riding snowmobiles for hours through the countryside. Most people around knew me, and my great, great grandparents too.

As we speak, there are a million big trucks and earth-moving equipment tearing it all up to make room for industry – pharmaceuticals and a Meta data center. A sign of the priorities of the time.

Farm houses, giant old trees, peonies, barns, and yards where kids used to play. All leveled. Acres upon acres that were family farms when I was growing up. All bare dirt now. 5 miles of road that I traveled zillions of times in my youth to get to town now looks like a nuclear bomb went off. It’s a wasteland.

It’s hard to witness.

I’m using The Wheel of the Year to help me process it.

The Wheel is an invitation to tap into the energies of the season. To connect with the natural world and the rhythm of things. Life and death. Light and darkness. It helps us tap deeper into our innate knowing. Our own sacred cycles.

We’re in Samhain season on The Wheel of The Year. The themes of this season are:

• Endings…that always promise new beginnings

• Allowing for the darkness, the void. It’s in the void that the creative impulse can emerge.

• Releasing. Like the falling leaves, what you release is compost for the next creation.

• The element of water- flow. How can you welcome more flow. Less resistance.

• Connecting with our ancestors. This is a time for stories and home.

• Exploring the magic and mystery in the dark unknown.

It’s so fitting isn’t it? The themes all apply. It makes pain poetic.

And this is life, right?

We can’t always change the circumstances. This circumstance is certainly out of my control. Lots and lots of people in Boone County fought it. It happened anyway. Sometimes it does.

So when the circumstance feels icky, and sad, and wrong…how will we choose to hold it? Cuz sometimes we get handed a pile of stinky shit. The darkness comes.

This is my work. I help people process circumstances that they do not like. I help them explore it and feel it, and decide how to navigate it.

We always have a choice about how we show up for any circumstance.

I know these tools well because I use them to navigate my own life. I’m a human, and I’m in this human game just like you.

We can’t escape the darkness. But there are tools available to navigate the path.

If you are faced with a pile of shit and want some help navigating, you can schedule a 1:1 energy healing session, or a coaching session, or join one of my groups.

Connection breathes new life into us. Sitting in a circle of women is powerful support. It elevates us out of our own pain, and our limited view.

I’d be honored to support you in any of these ways….Sign up buttons right there…

Who's Influencing You?

That’s a theme with my clients (and me) right now.

We are being asked to grow our awareness and discernment around influence.

• What is influencing us?

• Who is trying to influence us?

• How are we influenced?

• How can we remain clear so that we are sovereign beings?

I had a pranic healing client yesterday who is trying to make a big decision. She’s been asking for guidance but the messages she’s getting don’t feel good or right. 

She was seeking clarity. 

I hear over and over that my clients get clarity from a pranic healing session. 

The pranic healing process clears all of the outside influences:

• Our thoughts – “I should do this, I shouldn’t do that.” Those thoughts become things.

• Limiting beliefs and old stories

• Other people’s opinions

• Our emotions – fears, old hurts

• Past lives

• Ancestors

We clear all that fog so that you have access to your clear guidance.

I have noticed a pattern of chakras that are clogged and have been told that these chakras are the portals where outside influences try to plug into us.

My client kept coughing during the session and I got a frog in my throat. Once I got her chakras cleared, our throats were totally fine. I didn’t even need to clear the throat chakra. That was not where the block was, but the blocks in other places were influencing her voice, her expression.

As the session went on, she continued to get more clarity about the situation.

So many ah-has.

Once you clear all the noise of outside influences, you can hear what’s right for you. You know.

If you’re seeking clarity, I invite you to schedule a pranic healing session.

Manifestation: 4 Steps

Manifestation. It’s a buzz word these days. 

Here’s how I see it: Manifestation is making things happen and creating a feeling of things flowing. Maybe those “things” are spiritual connection, inspiration, your health, energy, material things, ideas, emotions, relationships, opportunities. Anything really.

One manifestation seems to create a chain reaction of all kinds of things happening. It shifts your energy and that changes lots of things.

I got in that manifestation energy last week after having been out of it for a few months. It feels so good!

I decided to dig into how I created the environment to get the energy flowing again so that opportunities could manifest. I thought you might like to hear it!  Here’s what I did:

1.     Ask. I asked for what I wanted. Very specifically. And I wrote it down. This required me to get clear on what exactly I wanted and why. The details of how it will happen are not that important. In fact, a focus on the details of “how” is counter-productive because it rarely looks like what my brain can conjure up. I think the most important part is to stick to what you want and why and write it down in the form of an ask. 

2.    Get clear on your mission. Why am I here on this earth in this body, in this place, in this life? What are my priorities? Where can I have the biggest impact? What is my calling? What are my gifts (that I should be using)? I have figured all that out, but I needed to remind myself. Here are a few practical tools I repeatedly use:

Writing in my journal and sometimes typing it out and arranging it in a way that I can explain it to someone else. Like I’m doing here! Whether I share it or not, preparing it as if I’m going to share it creates clarity.

My spiritual practices – meditation to calm & center me, and get out of my monkey mind brain chatter. It reorders me to the truth, which is not about the silly human stuff. It creates a knowing clarity – “oh yes THIS is what’s important.” I also often draw an oracle card to receive a divine message. It’s ALWAYS on point. I also often open to a random page in one of my spiritual books. It’s usually a Grandmothers book. If you haven’t heard me talk about them, you can read more about them here.

Once I have clarity, I ask is this thing I think I want staying true to that? Knowing my mission, does this ask fit into it? If so, how exactly? How can I contribute value here? This keeps your efforts and desires in line with your mission and values.

3.    Take back my power! Get out of the victim energy. Victim energy can dress itself up in a cute little outfit and make you think it’s strength, or fortitude, or something else more noble. Tricky guy. It may sound like this:

“This is just the way it is (poor me). I’ll just bloom where I’m planted.”

“This circumstance/situation/structure/person is wrong and stupid and bad (And I’m right and have all the answers, of course).”

“I don’t want or like this (and you should magically know that and give me what I want and like without me asking).” 

Ok. Fine. Whine about it and get all indignant if you must (I usually must ;-)). THEN… how can you take charge in some way? What CAN I control/command? If I don’t want this, then what DO I want? How can I take action to influence the situation?

A side note on action: The action just needs to be the next right step. You don’t have to have it all figured out from A-Z. Figuring all that out makes you tired and overwhelmed and you’ll probably be wrong anyway. Just do SOMETHING. One thing. The first step in that direction. How can you be IN action, rather than stuck in inaction?

4.    Now share it with the humans. Get it outta your noggin girl! Declare it to someone out loud. Talk to friends about it. I’m usually not looking to them for advice or confirmation, but talking it out helps me gain further clarity and builds my conviction and confidence. It also helps me to feel supported. 

Then, in this case, I had a tough conversation. I showed up to a meeting to share my truth, to speak with compassion and power, serious and strong, but playful, as is my way. Use your own brand of communication and expression. Stay true to that. 

The oracle card that I drew for that week said “My capacity to tune in to the energy of love gives me the words I need when I’m ready to speak up, the compassion I need when it’s time to forgive, and the power I need when I am lost.” I considered that the formula that I needed to use for this tough conversation.

Those were my steps.

So here’s what happened: I had the conversation. I was clear and strong. I was light and playful. I was not tied to the outcome because I was clear on where I stood. I had love and compassion in my heart. No one was right or wrong. I felt powerful and grounded. I knew that whether I got what I wanted or not, that I would be ok.

And the outcome COULD NOT HAVE BEEN BETTER! I was seen, heard, respected, AND I got everything I wanted! Which isn’t always the case and wasn’t my goal. But it’s fun when that happens isn’t it? 

And then the energy dam broke. People and opportunities started magnetizing to me. Because that’s how energy works. Dominoes. Two emails that were hanging out there for weeks suddenly replied with enthusiastic “yes let’s get together”. A collaboration opportunity suddenly popped up. A client/friend emailed me and said “I keep seeing things that remind me of you and I thought that means I should reach out!”

Magic seems to be sparking everywhere! I feel alive and motivated and energized!

A qualifier: All of this being said – I think “manifestation”, whatever that means to you, is complex and not always a neat 4 step process. If you follow this formula, results may vary. Or maybe not. Maybe I just unlocked the keys to the Universe. Haha! I’m betting no. There are unforeseen forces at work that our little human brains can’t see or control. So I like to play with the process, and hold it loosely and trust that all is unfolding as it should.

So tell me…what do you think of all this? How do you manifest? I wanna hear it!

If you’d like help with this process, schedule a coaching session here and we’ll dig into it together!

Painting: The Blade, by Amy Kirchner

The logjam in your brain

I have an intake form for new coaching clients. It gives me an idea of where you’re at even before our first coaching session. And it helps you gain clarity so that we can make the most of our time together.

I have noticed that simply filling out this form leads to so many revelations, and even change-making…before we even get started with coaching!

For my newest coaching client these questions sparked SEVEN pages of notes! So many insights & awarenesses came up for her.

I thought you might like to see them. So grab a pencil and at least 7 pieces of paper ;-). Here goes:

• What do you need to let go of?

• How is hanging on affecting you?

• Why do you think you’re having trouble letting go?

• What have you tried?

• What is on the other side of letting go?

• What do you want to get out of our time together?

• Is there anything else that you want me to know?

Pretty simple questions that can help clear a log jam in your brain so that things can flow easier.

I hope these questions unlock some insights for you. If you’d like help once you get it all out, schedule a Discovery Zoom Call. It’s a free session. We’ll decide together where to go from there.

photo: AI generated via @lizsunshine on IG

Different Angles On Choosing Love

Did you read my blog post “WTF Does ‘Leading With Love’ Mean?

Several of the wise women in this community responded to me with really inspirational, practical, deep, creative thoughts and perspectives. And y’all need to hear them! They graciously gave me permission to share their wisdom with you.

So here they are! In no particular order. “What does it mean to choose love?”:

First from Linda: Choosing love: Allow-acknowledge-accept. Have you heard of Bashar? He speaks of this formula. I feel I choose love when I drop from the head to the heart.

Next, Alana: We must be channeling the same energy because I have been hearing the words “choose love” chanting through my brain for about 5 days now.  

And then you put Georgia O’Keeffe and that quote about doing nothing all summer but waiting to be yourself and THAT has been my summer mantra! Getting back to being my fckn self!!! Andddd I just got back from the Georgia O’Keeffe Ghost Ranch in Abiquiu NM and had a magical plant-y experience with goldenrod, who firmly and playfully reminded me to get back to being myself :)

Tracy note: Isn’t it so cool how we’re all connected? I’ve heard synchronicities from so many of you. I took Alana’s share as a message for me to take my goldenrod tincture that I made!

Next up – from Pam: I launched myself into choosing love earlier this year and continue to explore it as well!! 

When I was feeling neutral, I pulled out my journal and began to document situations or people that made me feel negative emotions (fear). Was there a different perspective that I hadn't explored? Was that situation really to blame or did I react from a wounded place? As I practiced writing/analyzing, I also got better at being in the moment without immediately becoming angry or frustrated when I was being challenged. It's still a work in progress but keeping in mind that the Universe is always working FOR me and not against me helps too.

I've also circled back to the Four Agreements, which includes "never take anything personally" and "don't make assumptions," AND I always hear you asking me what I'm mirroring. These little reminders have helped me explore as well. Am I making an assumption? Am I mirroring fear?

I also have The Universe Has Your Back card deck (Transform Fear to Faith) that has been helpful. Drawing a card at the beginning of the week and then looking at it helps me remember to consider if I'm seeing something through the fear or love lens.

Some of the messages:

• My outer experiences are a reflection of my internal condition.

• I let go of the shadow of the past by seeing someone for the first time with the eyes of love.

• The moment I realign with love, clear direction is presented to me.

• When I lean toward love I am led.

• I recognize that I have chosen fear, and I choose again. I choose love.

Tracy note: I ordered that deck! And I’m drawing a card of the week. 

I've noticed that I continue to pull weekly cards around this topic week after week after week when there are lots of others in the deck. :) 

Anna shared this: I was moved to share this podcast episode with you from my favorite podcast. It really speaks to the choose love, openness concept in a way that fills out the picture very powerfully.

Thank you friends for sharing your perspectives! I am so very grateful.

Do you have something you’d like to share on this topic? We’d all love to see it in the comments below!